Anything and Nothing At All

I'm sure you've all heard of the song When I Grow Up. That's how i feel my life is like. When I grow up I want to be a marine biologist. When I grow up I want to travel the world. When I grow up I want to study abroad. So, you get my point. I know that these are all dreams to most people, but to me they are so much more than that. To me they are what I live for everyday. What I look forward to everyday. They are real to me. They are not just dreams and hopes and places I wish to go, but things I will do and places I will go. I know I'm young to have such dreams and hopes to have in your head. But I feel without them I will know longer be myself. Who I am. They are apart of me. Without them I am just like anyone with no dreams of ever doing anything with their lives. The normal people. Now I don't mean that in a bad way. For many people that works for them. But for me, being abnormal is just like any normal thing. That's why I have these hopes and dreams. I live for them.

I feel that if I've already shared that I have these hopes and dreams with you, I should tell you what they are.

One of my major dreams that I live by everyday is that one day I will travel the world. There are many places I will go, but I'll spare you some time and just tell you the main places. The first place I will go is probably County Cavan, Ireland. This is where my ancestors are originally from. I think that this would be a very cool and valuable place to go. Why would it be valuable, you say? I could learn so much about my family there, and who knows. I could meet an Irish boy there. In other words, want my dad would like. Sorry, dad, not my kind of options. But I'll keep an open mind. Anyway that's a long way away!

The next place I will go is England. I don't care where I go in England, as long as I go. The one place though that I would prefer going is London. I absolutely love London! The big city feel of it just makes me feel right at home! I love big cities, the busyness of it and the always on the go life! Anyway, what I also love about London is the ancient parts of it. The old parts of London that they have kept around. For example, the London Bridge, Big Ben, and the Parliament Building. My dad would not like it if I found an English guy. But to be honest, I would not mind in the least! England is where I would prefer to study abroad. It would be the perfect chance to be able to come to England and explore it's culture and history. My dad doesn't want to admit it, however I'm perfectly fine saying it, but we are partly from England. It's on my dad's side, and he just hate to admit it to anyone, but I figure since all this is coming from me it's perfectly fine to share it with you. I don't know why he doesn't like to say it. I think it's great!

There are many more places I will go that I just can't each describe in one paragraph so I'm going to summarize it up for you. Where I will start with my journey across the rest of Europe is Norway, Sweden and Finland. I can't put into words why I want go here, but I just do. The cities in these countries just seem so amazing! I just know that this is one of the place that I have to go.

The next place on my never ending list, it seems like, is the Netherlands. I learned just recently that part of my family, a very, very, very small part, is from here. I just know that's it's on my dad's side. I think. Anyway. if you've seen pictures of the Netherlands, you'd know why I want to go there. Its absolutely BEAUTIFUL!

The next place on my journey would have to be either Germany or Poland. These are the main countries that still have physical memories of World War Two. I am absolutely in love with this war. I know this sounds weird but that is how i feel it best described in words.  What I mean by this having a lot of physical memories is that of all the museums, memorials, and amazingly some still standing concentration camps. This would definitely be the most sad part of the whole experience of the trip. I mean I can't even imagine what  it would be like to walk up to one of the gates entering the camps. The sadness, the feeling of death being right on the other side of those gates. It would just wash over you like one huge wave crashing down on you and there is nothing that you can do to stop it. Of course I wouldn't know what it feels like until I go there, but by just reading about all the hardships and sadness that they had to face. I can't even imagine.

Anyway, on to happier talk. Other places in Europe I will go are Italy , Spain and Greece. I really have no reason as to why I want to go here, but it just interests me a lot. And all of these countries, anywhere you go in them, are beautiful! This is pretty much the main reason I why I want to go here.

I'd just like to point out that there is a big difference between the wills and wantwills make it seem more real for me. Something that could really happen. The wants are just more of a dream, an extra bonus if you want to call it.

So I've told you about the places in Europe that I will and want to go. Now time to move on to another continent. This next continent would be Asia. The places here that I wish to go are more like wants. There's no place here that I just really feel like I will go. Anyway some of the places I want to go are China, India, Japan, and the Philippines. These places interests me for no reason at all. I just want to go to them if I ever get the chance.

Now below this huge continent is one of the many places that I will go. Australia. This place is just so beautiful to me and so interesting. The most amazing feature about this place is the water that surrounds it. What is contained in these amazing waters is the Great Barrier Reef. I would love to get the chance to scuba dive here. This is one of my many "real" dreams as I like to call it. The one city that amazes me the most, though, would probably have to be Sydney, Australia. It has everything that interests me in a place that I would love to live in. It has the big city feel and it's by the ocean. The weather is always nice. Even though it wouldn't get snow in the winter, I wouldn't even mind. I could most definitely live without that time of year.

The next stop on my endless journey around the world is Central America. I love to look at pictures of the underwater world of the Caribbean Sea. It always amazes me every time I look at it. It's absolutely beautiful. Now I know I say this about most of the countries I talk about, but this I am truly genuine about. If I could, I would live and breath Caribbean air everyday. So many of the worlds most beautiful and rare underwater species are found right in the Caribbean.

Now speaking of underwater life, this brings me to my next dream. Well I don't really know if you can call it a dream. Being this is just something I want to do for a professional career. What I'm talking about is becoming a marine biologist. I think I fell in love with this idea when I was young, but I just hadn't fully processed it yet. I knew in my subconscious that I would love doing this. It would be the perfect job for me too. Not just the science part of it, which by the way, if you didn't already know, I absolutely love science. Anyway, the main reason I would love this job is because I love the water with all my heart. Now I'm not trying to sound all mushy, gushy "in love" with the ocean. But I feel this be the best way to describe my feelings for it. Ever since I was a kid I have loved the water. When I was young, I would swim in the pool for 4 to 5 hours straight without even getting out once. My mom used to say that I was a fish. And now I feel that that's the best way to describe myself back then. I was a little fish. I never took on competitive swimming, though, because I loved it to much to compete for it. It just didn't feel right to compete for something like that. Don't ask me why, but that is just how I feel. Anyway, getting back to the career part. This is not the only thing that I'm interested in dealing with water.

The other career option I have for myself is becoming an archaeologist. But an underwater archaeologist. Sort of like a treasure hunter but I wouldn't be in it for the money. I would be in it for the history. This is another thing I love, besides science. I'm definitely like my dad when it comes to subjects in school. We both love history and science. And we both absolutely love books-this coincides with literature, so we both love that subject, too. I feel that this job would benefit me in a lot of ways. I love history and I could learn a lot from it. And, as you just read above, I love the water. Being underwater makes me feel so weightless and free. Down there I feel like anything is possible.

Now in this blog I have shared with you my innermost feelings with you. My deepest hopes and dreams. However, as I said earlier, they are so much more than that to me. These dreams are what I live for everyday. What makes me get through the day. What makes me get out of bed in the morning and go to school to learn some pretty pointless things sometimes. But I know in the end, it will pay off. In the end it is what will get me to all the places I will go in life. All the things I will do. All the places I will see. Now you may think me arrogant, but I perfectly realize what it will take to get me to all of these places. Money. But you see this is not the only realistic variable in this. Determination. Willingness to do whatever it takes to get me where I will go. Courage. Hope. And a whole lot of stubbornness to get what I want. But that's okay. I know that if I never give up on my dreams they WILL come true. But only if you are willing enough to let them.